Quitting Marijuana: How my life changed.
I was a daily user of marijuana. Not a joint after work, but bong-hits before work, during work and after work. A round the clock drug addict with all the bells & whistles to support such a habit.
If I wasn’t stoned – I would become irritable, discontent & miserable – we called it hedging or fiending. I will never forget how much I have come to resent this feeling of waiting on someone else to provide the plants I so desperately came to rely on.
During the peak of my record-attempt at of living out my life as if I was Wiz Khalifa – I would probably smoke on average 3-4 grams on a normal day as an average and closer to 14g if we were really having a go, mixed in with tobacco.
During this period, I never had money – I was always living pay to pay (or worse burrowing from friends and family). I ate whatever my cravings felt like at the time; Red Rock Deli chips, Mars Bars, 2 minute noodles. It had to be convenient and easy. I lost a lot of weight in this period, but not in a healthy fitness influencer kind of way.
I tried a few times to quit smoking weed. It was incredibly difficult as any full-time smoker can tell you. The sleepless nights, the irritability and the boredom and emotional rollercoaster are all hard to deal with. Mix that in with it being your personality, your environment and the only reason you have relationships with people.
So how do you quit Marijuana if your life is consumed by it in every aspect?
The first & most important step is admitting to yourself this is something you actually want to quit. You don’t necessarily have to quit right then and there but you do need to accept that it is negatively impacting your life and want to quit.
Set a sobriety goal and allow your life to be consumed by the message – I am going to quit marijuana. Fill your mind from all possible aspects on the message. Podcasts, songs, read about it, talk about it – do whatever you can to put that message in your head. I AM NO LONGER SMOKING POT, OR AM SOMEONE WHO ENJOYS BEING HIGH CONSTANTLY. Take a look around your town or city at the people who have lost their mind to drugs; did they ever plan to be in the position they are in? No is likely the answer. So what makes you think you’re going to escape this pattern too?
Don’t be such a baby either, you’re going to have weird dreams (when they return) – your appetite is going to be all out of whack, your digestive system is going to do strange things, you’re going to struggle sleeping – and above all you will become BORED. All of these things are good. If you’re experiencing these things, that means what you are doing is actually working. Your body is detoxifying itself.
Every time you crave a bong-hit, or experience boredom – don’t see it as a negative feeling. Take a deep breath and think ‘Thank fuck, I’m actually doing it – I can feel the effects of my progress’.
Within 4 weeks you will feel relatively normal, and depending how long you’ve been smoking for – after that the main struggle you’ll find is searching again for the person you lost. What do you enjoy? How should you spend your time? These are all questions you will have to answer on your own – but at least you’re finally in a position again where these are questions you will be asking yourself, not condemned to a never-ending feeling of being content.
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